I will be 40 this year.
I’ve have heard that some people have a “scary” age. One that they just don’t look forward to and I always thought mine was 40, but now that I’m here – not so much.
In my 20’s I was crazy.
Farm girl gone to the big city, that first taste of freedom and ALL the mistakes. I had no idea who I was, what I wanted to be and absolutely no self esteem. I hung out with the wrong people, and dated the wrong guys, but really, came out on the other side smarter for all of it. I think of these years as my “test drive”
In my 30’s, I was better?
Gone was most of the crazy, I was married for a bit by then, had my kids and life just kinda went on. I started to come into my worth. My friend circle got smaller, but much more valuable. Towards the end of this decade here, I can honestly say I like myself more than I have my whole life.
I work with the younger generation and I hear them lamenting about turning 23, or 27 or whatever it is and I just keep telling them that they’re coming up on the best years of their lives. I tell them, believe in yourself, love yourself, be kind to yourself, life keeps going and really we just get more awesome.
The way I look at it is, I’m a Classic.
Yes, there might be more rust showing, some dents, maybe even some cracks, but it took a long time to get this 40’s patina. Lots of twists, and curves on the road of life. Time spent sitting in the sun, rain, snow and all the storms.
I’m looking forward to continuing the drive.
Chris is one of the only mama’s with a “day job”. Mom of 2, a 7 & 9 year old, she works as a admin for a local bakery. She loves cider, hanging out with good people and writing about her feelings. She currently resides in our Capital City, however she grew up on a farm north east of the city and never forgets her farm girl roots.